Please Don't Hate Me

Please say it ain't so... Out of all people it had to be you that hates me. Stuff like this doesn't leave my mind, as a matter of fact it comes back to haunt me and question my life and even makes me question God. It was a while back when you screamed in my face saying "I HATE YOU" but how I felt then is the same way I feel now...hurt, sad, and scarred for life. I didn't ask for this as a matter of fact I didn't want this at all but I can't forget you saying those words to me. I can't sleep right now because of this, I feel like a burden on your life and it has affected the way I am, it has affected my spirit.

I'm sorry that I caused you to hate me for the following:

Because I'm a failure
Because you don't trust me
Because I don't get good grades
Because I'm not normal
Because I'm not perfect
Because I'm not like or better than others
Because I'm not what you wanted me to be

I'm sorry for being a burden to you because of this.
I never hated you
but yet you said it to me
I'm sorry mom
You never apologized about it
so..............
I guess it's true
you really do hate me
your son...........
You put a show on when you're around others but you had & have no intrest in what i do or who i am.

Thank You for not beliving in me when I need you most.

Thank You for making me think about you saying that over and over and over again

Thank You for making me want to give up

Thank You for making me cry

Thank You for the hurt

I know I messed my life up, you didn't have to add insult to injury at that time

Thank You for making me an off and on suicidal person

I know you don't care though........................